Thursday, May 22, 2014

Todays Real Talk


Today’s Real Talk: My Real Life

 

My real intention was to get online and update my blog first thing this morning. But as usual the day had a mind of its own. Well, not really!! Truthfully, I just didn’t organize and plan my day well. It’s funny how we think we are well organized people, but then when we really start to look at ourselves from authentic and true perspectives, the truth stares us square in the face.  It’s not always pretty either. But I’m ready. I am ready to embrace the truth. My goal is to be the best me I can be. And the only way to achieve that goal is to embrace all of me. My good, bad and ugly.

Truth is, I would like to think that I am organized. And, I am in some areas. But to be organized only in some areas means I am not organized. That’s real talk!  Funny, how truth works. So, instead of defending myself with all of the reasons and justification for not being organized. I have to be honest with myself. And now the next questions is how do I get better? How do I become more organized in every, not just some facets of my life?

 

Guess that will be the topic of discussion tomorrow.  I am wondering if anyone have any suggestions or understands embracing truth about oneself.

 

Enjoy your day and always, always love yourself….all of you. The good, bad and ugly!!

Cheers,  

Tonya L  

Wednesday, May 21, 2014


Let me speak to thee of love….
 

A love so wonderful, so beautiful

Words cannot express its nobility
 

A love between a man and a woman

So deep, so consuming

One can hardly breathe without the other

Even when he’s holding her like a brother



A love so connected so immersed into their

very being,  never disagreeing

 
A love that speaks through eyes and touch

A love that doesn’t have to say much

But is expressed through demonstration and such

 
A love that fills up the very spirit

And makes it whole and complete

Never will it take a backseat
 

A love that says where you go

I will follow~ always and forever

Today and tomorrow   

 

©copyright 2007  Tonya Lasha White

Will you still love me tomorrow?

Today I am beautiful, sassy and hot ~you find no fault and you don’t have to think a lot~ when I call you, you answer before the phone rings 

But will you still love me tomorrow?

Today I am fine and refined like an aged glass of wine~ smelling of sweet perfume in the summertime~ making you feel like you are on cloud nine

But will you still love me tomorrow?

Today my smile is stunning and makes your world light up like a fire ~today I make your loins quake and your insides jitter and you declare that looking in my eyes you will never tire

But will you still love me tomorrow?

Today you stare at my picture and you fantasize ~ How it will be—when we are together—if we are together waking up to your honey bun every morning and lying down besides your sweet cheeks every night

But when tomorrow comes—and my eyes are not as bright

When tomorrow comes and I am not as fine as I was yesterday

When tomorrow comes and my sassiness is not as exciting, but more annoying and everyday becomes a per functionary toiling

Will you still love me—10,20,30 years from now when the physical appearance doesn’t make your loins quake or cause your heart to flutter

Will you still love me when I am a shell of my former self –when all that’s left is the real me-- the inner me

Will you still love me when my hair is gray or I have none at all

Will you still love me when the legs that use to run and wrap themselves around you can no longer

Will you still love me when the smile that drew you near is sitting in a jar on the bedside

Will you still love me when tomorrow comes!!!!

 
Disclaimer: Beauty is only skin deep and very fleeting…when looking for someone to spend time with make sure they are everything you are looking for on the inside as well as on the outside..  Only God’s love is true love  and it is never shallow but enduring until the very last breath is taken and beyond!
©2014 Tonya L. White Johnson
  
 
 
 

Real Talk: Excerpt from my upcoming book: Words of Inspiration--Sister to Sister: So Then I Learned!


Sister to Sister

 

Hey little sister, I see you bobbing your head to the music of the day, blasting your radio while watching your favorite video on the cable station. You see the sexy diva on the screen with the daisy dukes on, with half of her butt hanging out. The little number she has on for a top barely covering her inflated breast. Her cocoa skin colored belly with the 14 carat gold chain wrapped around her curved waist. Her honey, colored extensions hanging long, down to her buttocks, lips glossy, wet with bright red lipstick, her fake eyelashes are fluttering like Marilyn Monroe and her makeup caked on, to perfection.

I see you watching in utter fascination as she bumps and grinds on some thugged-out nigga as he licks his lips and grins, the flare of the sun catches his top and bottom gold grill, they began to push up on each other in their mock sexcapade on national TV and she grunts and moans in mocked ecstasy. As the video winds down they ride into the sunset in their suped up  SUV brought with the blood of their sistahs and brothas.

I see the longing in your eyes as your thoughts drift away before the next video catches your eye. I hear you thinking I wanna be her someday. My heart bleed for you little sister because I want more for you, my heart bleeds because I realize I want more than you want for yourself.

I want to see my little sister as a professional young woman modestly attired in a Versace business suit walking with your head held high, perhaps a doctor or a lawyer or an entrepreneur. Regardless of what profession, I wish to see an intellectual, articulate, young sister with goals and the ability to express yourself in a manner that your ancestors would be proud of. Little sister I ask you a question. Why is it your fantasy to walk around half-naked showing all that God gave you to every man on the planet? Why is it that you wish to let every Tom, Dick and/or Terrance put his filthy, diseased, unclean body parts all over your precious temple?

When do you little sister began to value yourself as the princess you were meant to be? Just a simple observation, but have you ever seen a Queen being fondled in public, the very thought is revolting, then tell me, why you, my beautiful little sisters, the original Queen of the Nile, make yourself so common that it is okay for the peasants (THUGS) to touch you, to view you, to leer at you in the open court in un-queen-like manner.

I ask you this little sister, because the power is in your hands to stop it, to put an end to your disgrace. You see, our men would be better if we held them to a standard. They would show more respect if we respected ourselves. If we became the Princesses and Queens that God intended us to be, our African-American Kings would stand up and take their rightful place. LITTLE SISTER!!! IT’S UP TO YOU. DO THE RIGHT THING.      
 
 

©2014 Tonya L. White Johnson

 

 

Poetry/Floetry: Tears in Her Eyes


Tears in her eyes

 Little girl with big dreams

Heart shattered in a million little pieces

Folks looking at the outside in

Sees only a big smile and a grin

 

Long pigtails and a outrageous laugh

No longer laughing with tears in her eyes

She battles courageously just to make it through

another day-- sometimes praying it will all

just go away

 

A little girls dreams

of joy and happiness gone with the

reality of life’s crude awakening

What will become of this little girl with big dreams

Will she ever find happiness again?

 

When she looks in the mirror at her reflection

It shows the scars and tracks of her tears

In the morning she’ll do it all over again

Paste a smile and hope no one notices

A little girl with big dreams with tears in her eyes

threatening to spill over from behind the façade of a smile

 

©2005 Tonya Lasha

 








Tuesday, May 20, 2014

AHA moment!!

The Law of Attraction say like things attract like things.

What are you attracting to you today?

Today's positive affirmation: I am spiritually and physically healthy, I am wealthy, prosperous and happy, I am sane and can think clearly!! I am blessed beyond measure!! I am a child of the king!!!

#passiton
~Tonya L

Todays Inspiration

Happy and Grateful Tuesday!!

The attached picture is a shot of one of the stops my husband and I made as we did our morning walk. While there I received a powerful message. At one point my husband grabbed me and just held and embraced me. I stopped all of my thoughts to really feel his embrace. It was strong and I felt so secure,  like nothing was wrong in the world. I knew as long as he had me in his arms nothing bad could happen to me.

At that exact moment, God was showing me how he has us in in his arms, just like that. If we simply surrender to his embrace, he would never let us fall. His arms are so much stronger and secure.

I am reminded of what it means to trust. Because, my husband knew the importance of trust,  before we got married, we played this game, where I had to fall backwards in his arms, with no fear. With my heart pounding I did it, the first time. I let go and he caught me.  Each time thereafter, it got so
much easier. These days I just fall back arbitrarily when I am close to him. He has never let me fall.

If we just believe God, just like that. Even, try him, just like that, he will never let us fall!!!

I love you all so much, and I thank you for being apart of my life.  #intentional honor # intentional service #intentional praise # abundant living is not for the faint of heart